Successful??

I need to super-size my life! I have to stop procrastinating and move forward with everything! I want to be proud of myself, I want to make my boyfriend proud of me. I want my family to be proud of me… I don’t know if I need recognition for everything I do, but I know that I love to have recognition if I can get it. I know what I need to do to succeed but it’s a scary thought to be successful, and scary not to be successful. It’s kinda a catch twenty-two, I want to be successful but I also know that I need to work my ass off to get myself taken care of and make the money I want to!

Being myself isn’t always an easy thing to do, I’ve learned over the years to get better and better at being myself. Everyone is good at being their-selves if they just put their minds to it. I love when I can be myself and have fun and just live. Sometimes its scares me to live though, some people it seems don’t think about how scary it can be to be yourself. And yet being myself isn’t as hard as believing in myself. It’s not an easy thing to move forward and just believe you can do it. What’s the last thing you did that you believed you could do it and you did! I remember quitting my job and knowing I could make it with Mary Kay. I know I can make it, I just have to believe I can.

I look at this quote by Reba and I think I have all of those things inside of me, how do i find them?  I have a wishbone, I have a lot of wishes and dreams that haven’t come true yet. I have a backbone, I’ve stood up to people who were wrong more then I can remember. I have a funny-bone, I sometimes don’t realize I have it but I do, it’s not until I say something and everyone laughs that I realize there’s my funny-bone! If I could just move all of those things together I could do what I want to and what I need to get myself going. Reba has always been one of the best women I know to look up too. She has lived through and survived so much more then one person ever could. I can thank my father for introducing me to her music. She’s a country girl who made her dreams come true.

Again I fall to Cinderella, Click the pic above to live your dreams like I am trying to do! Mary Kay has a special this month of $75 to join and start your Cinderella dreams!

Amazing Family

Family means

1. a. A fundamental social group in society typically consisting of one or two parents and their children. b. Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place.  2. All the members of a household under one roof.  3. A group of persons sharing common ancestry.   4. Lineage, especially distinguished lineage. 5. A locally independent organized crime unit. 6. a. A group of like things; a class. b. A group of individuals derived from a common stock: the family of human beings. 7. Biology A taxonomic category of related organisms ranking below an order and above a genus. A family usually consists of several genera. 8. Linguistics A group of languages descended from the same parent language, such as the Indo-European language family. 9. Mathematics A set of functions or surfaces that can be generated by varying the parameters of a general equation. 10. Chemistry A group of elements with similar chemical properties. 11. Chemistry A vertical column in the periodic table of elements.  1. Of or having to do with a family: family problems.  2. Being suitable for a family: family movies.

So I looked up what family means and this is what I got! There’s so many things there! I never thought of family as anything but my mom, my father, my stepdad, my stepmom, my sisters, my brother, my boyfriend, his mom, his brother, my grandparents, and my best friends. My family is big and sometimes confusing to those who don’t know it. But the people in my life are a amazing! I love having my family around me! I forget sometimes how spoiled I am to have them all in my life! I was with my mom, dad, sisters, their husbands, and my grandparents this weekend. They are amazing and so much fun to be around! Both of my sisters got married last year and one of them had cupcakes at their reception, when the woman who made them put them out she noticed that one was missing… We all knew my grandfather had taken the cupcake cause he was sitting there “minding his own business” when one disappeared. My grandma didn’t believe that he had taken the one cupcake she was like I got him his cupcake and I looked at her and said that doesn’t mean it was his only cupcake! LOL! Grandma then looked at Grandpa and said did you take her cupcake before the wedding??? I’ve never seen grandpa so red and he was laughing and trying to eat at the same time! Grandpa finally admitted after almost a year that he stole the cupcake! And we all just about fell out of the chair laughing, Grandpa says I never thought anyone could embarrass me! It was great! My family is amazing! I love them!!

My family gives me strength to be myself and to believe in myself. My family loves and cares about me and what am I am doing in my life. I’ve been blessed to have the family I do. I know that there aren’t many people who are blessed like I am. I feel very sad for those who don’t get to appreciate the love and joy I’ve been given in my life. My family is a bright spot in my life! They always have been even though I know I haven’t always been the brightest person in theirs. They have chosen to love me and care for me and keep me in their lives!

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What’s your Grace?

Have you ever wondered what Grace is? This is the definition that I found in a dictionary, a :unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification b :a virtue coming from God c : a state of sanctification enjoyed through divine grace. There is so many meanings to the word Grace. How do I as a woman make my way into being Graceful, or just having Grace. I know it’s a lot to wonder but I want people to see me in a wonderful light, not just in a regular light. It’s a strange thing to think about, how do you find Grace? I know that as being a Christian that God’s Grace is given to me, but how do I know that I am being a Graceful person.

Is it as simple as smiling at someone? Is it as simple as just being who you are?

This quote says so much! I know that with Grace and dignity and just plain gumption I can do this! Looking more into my heart and finding what I want more and more. I always know that I can do something but it’s a matter of that thing inside me that holds me back. My heads so full of crap and holding me back. When you make up your mind to do something you’ve got to remember to not listen to what your brain says. I have that problem so much so it holds me back. I need to learn to listen to my heart more, my heart has lead me many places the best place is where I am now with my boyfriend. My heart has also healed from the scars that have been left on it.

I’m dreaming it, I’m wishing it, I’ve just got to do it… I’m planning on doing more and more… The more I work on myself and work on my work for Mary Kay the better my business can get and the better my business will be going! I’m trying so hard to move where I want to be, just doing it isn’t usually in my vocabulary I’m just not that person. I learned about personalities and about how they work, I took a DISC personality test it was interesting to learn about myself, and what my personality says about me.

This says so much about my Mary Kay and how I want to be! I believe in PINK!!! I’ve always loved the color pink and now I work, live and breath PINK!! MK is all pink colors for their packaging, but it’s a prettier pink now. It’s a beautiful light pearlized pink! I can’t wait to be able to earn the Pink Caddy! I’ve got to really buckle down though so I can! I want a free car that I can earn through Mary Kay! It’s not easy but I know that I can do it!!

One day I’m going to get here also! Laying over the water in Maldives! And MK will help me get there!!! I can’t wait!!

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Finding Adventure

I’m choosing to own my own wings and growing more and more everyday… I’m beyond the age, I think, to be floundering the way I am right now. I have been floundering too much lately, I want so much more from life then I’ve got right now. Finding my wings to achieve my dreams hasn’t been an easy thing, stepping outside of my comfort zone isn’t easy at all. And to step out of my comfort zone is a very hard thing to do. I’m not one who usually to step out and make my way with all the things I’m doing. I love to make my own ways sometimes when it’s something I know I can do. My fear of doing things wrong tends to hold me back.

Bravery, courage, and the drive are an amazing thing when you have them. I have all of these things in me and I know that I want to use them, I just haven’t tapped into my potential of me. It’s like when I got my belly button pierced, I was brave and I had courage, even though I was going to pass out when the girl was doing it… I had to take a deep breath and my cousin got me a coke, or let me have some of hers, but it was a very brave and crazy thing that I did. To tap into that courage and bravery is an amazing thing, it took me so long to be able to get my piercing. And then it took me about a year before I got my tattoo, that one I did with my sister and we had a blast! Again though I had that moment of bravery and courage, so I know it’s in me. I just have to tap into it.

I want my life to be full of adventures, and full of life. I love my family and the adventures I’ve had with them, like the cruise we all went on in 2006. It was so much fun and so much adventure for that week. It was nonstop! I love weeks like that and then coming home and just relaxing. There are places I want to go and places I want to visit. My dream beach right now is Maldives!!

I mean look how amazing this is!!! It’s a place in my dreams!! I’ve been dreaming about being on this beach with my boyfriend! It would be beautiful and amazing!!! I love the look of this place and the feel of it from my dreams it feels amazing!

Can you just imagine?? I can!! 🙂

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Live

This is so true! Have you ever wondered whether you’re beautiful? I know I have! There are times where I wonder I know that women all have their insecurities, but I know that I’m a beautiful person. I don’t mean that in a conceded way, I truly don’t think of myself this way. I love to put my makeup on and I love to dress myself up and I know that my boyfriend thinks I’m pretty. He’s the love of my life, and he makes me feel very special. I love the way that he makes me feel. I love that he is mine and I’m his. He makes me smile, and is a light in my life!! I light up every time I see him! He’s an amazing person that has supported me in my MK dream! I know that I haven’t put all my dreams into action, but I’m working on doing that. Building my dreams to be bigger and better. I have so much that I want from life and so much that I want to achieve!

I’m trying my hardest to be very accountable to myself and my business. Which is the hardest thing in the world, you never know what you can achieve until you try! I haven’t been trying as hard as I could be or as hard as I need to be. Making a goal and achieving that goal can be easy but they can also be very hard to do when you don’t have your heart or mind set on it. It’s funny cause I was watching the Emmys tonight and Aaron Paul from Breaking Bad thanked his parents for believing in him and kicking him out of their house and making him live his dream! It’s amazing how many people talk about what is needed to achieve your own dreams.

I have to keep believing in myself and my dreams. When I’m not doing anything with my dreams though I’m not doing all that I can to achieve my dreams. I’ve got dreams of owning a house, of not worrying about money, of being able to tell my boyfriend that I’ll pay our rent for the month. I dream of having an amazing wedding, and having my children. There’s so much to reach for and to keep moving forward! I love that saying and I’m so glad that Walt Disney said it. He is one of my heroes not only did he accomplish Disneyland, he left a legacy for his family and his fans. I want to be that kind of person, I want to achieve the life that he was able to for him and his family.

I may have used this before in my blog here but it’s so true and it’s just something that I need to do! I dream it I’ve wished it and now I’ve got to do it! I’ve got so much to reach for and to do, to achieve. I love that I’ve got such a wonderful support system. My family, my boyfriend, and my unit leader Rebecca. They are all the people who look out for me and who want me to make my dreams come true.

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Inspired

I’ve learned that this is very true! People who are amazing have to work hard to be an amazing person. I’ve got some amazing women in my life who have inspired me today. I realize that I’ve got to get my drive and motivation going better then I have right now. I’ve watched the women I work with in Mary Kay be wonderful women, and inspire me to push harder and want more. My unit leader is the most amazing person I know. She’s got so much to live for and to reach for. She is financially independent and living her dreams as she goes. I want to be able to do that. To live my life with all my dreams coming true.

I’ve decided to try to do this more to fill my mind with beautiful thoughts, but not only my mind but my heart also! I need to keep striving to reach my goals and to keep looking forward to what is going to come my way if I meet my goals and dream bigger each time I try to reach my goals. My first real goal with Mary Kay is to earn a free car…

Can you imagine driving a car that is free?? That you didn’t have to pay for and that you just get to use and drive through out a year and a half and then when that time is up you get a new car so you always have a new car. It’s a very interesting thing that is offered to those of us who do use, sell and recruit for Mary Kay. The company is just amazing!! I learned something new today about MK also, did you know that MK has more cars on the road then UPS trucks?? Amazing isn’t it?? The government has more cars on the road the MK and then MK is the second company with cars on the road and then it’s UPS trucks! Weird right!?! But so cool!!!

This makes me think too, I’ve got princess dreams on a beer budget. LOL! And then I remember Cinderella with a line like this it’s totally more of an inspiration… I mean who really thought about this, but someone did. If Cinderella had gone back for her shoe, she might not have ever met the price the way she did. She wouldn’t have showed up her evil stepmother and her evil stepsisters by pulling out the other glass slipper from her dress when the price tried the slipper she left behind on her foot.  Then if you think about The Princess and The Frog story, the princess made choices to not to kiss the frog after the frog rescued her ball from the well, then the frog came up to her castle and told on her to her dad the king no less! I mean really, can you imagine first it’s a frog that talks and then he goes and talks to your father! I mean come on!! LOL! But in the end she kissed him and what did that bring her a prince! The price that she married and lived happily ever after with! I know the Disney version doesn’t tell the story that way but even with that princess she kissed the frog and became a frog but what if she hadn’t kissed the frog? Would she have been able to build the restaurant that she wanted too?? Would she have found a prince that was disguised as a frog??

I know I am kind of rambling here but you get my point I can’t keep saying what if to myself and my dreams. I’ve to take command of my life and of my dreams and keep it moving forward and keep things alive in my heart and in my mind. I’ve got to believe that it will happen more then I believed before. I’ve got to keep fighting for what I want, and what I dream of for my life and future! I’ve got to keep my head held up high and keep my dreams alive.

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Blocked

 

I’m doing my best to clear my mind in general, I have been blocked with trying to write in here with all the things I’ve felt this week. I’ve been struggling with getting my mind over that I can’t, my mom always told me that can’t means won’t, I can agree with my mom there, I can and I will. I try to make so many excuses of why I haven’t or why I can’t and the only thing that comes to me is my mind and thoughts. I have thought about it long and hard I have an opportunity to be at the fair this month and get my ass moving with the things I want to make and become in my Mary Kay, the month has just begun really. There is three weeks left in this month and so much to time to turn everything around and get moving. I’ve got to get can’t out of my head and make it I can.

 

This is so true in the business that I want to be in, I want to be my own boss, I want to believe that I can do what I say I am going to do, I want to be the one that friends can look up to and see what is going on, I want to be that person that anyone can look at and say there is something different about her, I want to reach my dreams and look out and see my future as a bright happy place. There is so much want and so much dreaming to be had. I dream about lots and I dream big, my dreams scare me and at the same time they don’t feel big enough sometimes! I’ve got life dreams of being married and being someones life, and someone’s love! I want to be a mother to my kids! I want to enjoy my life and look at my honey and say I’ll pay the rent this month! What an amazing feeling that would be! I dream and I dream big but somehow my dreams have always been that! My own life, my hold on my future, my moving forward and getting moving, my enjoying things that happen, and making all of my parents proud of me. I want all these things! Yet I hold myself back afraid to believe that I can do these things and make these things happen. Holding myself back doesn’t get my things done and doesn’t get my business where I want it to be. I hold on to those who are dear to me with all my might. I find that holding to tight though can push them away and that doesn’t help me to succeed.

My friend and leader put this up on facebook and it just spoke to my heart, my life doesn’t have a purpose by my own choosing. I haven’t made a choice to do my thing that I want to do to succeed with my business and my life! I make the choice to love my boyfriend everyday and he makes that especially easy! He is my love, my best friend and feels like my forever. I love being with him and I love the way he loves me but my purpose to succeed in my business hasn’t gotten me where I want to be because I’ve made the choice not to succeed in my business. My Mary Kay isn’t a hard business to work, I’ve just not worked it the way I wanted to and need to! I want a purpose and I want my dreams to be my purpose.  I can’t wait to succeed in life, in my business, to go further into my self growth then I ever have before. One day I’d love to write a book, I don’t know what about but someday I will. I guess that would be one of my dreams also! 🙂

This is my life now, I’m making my commitment to myself and to my dreams more then I’ve ever before! Click the pic check it out! 😉

Keep Moving Forward

Jumping into life isn’t always easy, but sometimes you have to dive in head first and not look back! When you look at life and see things differently and when you can look back on your life and don’t regret what your life has become then you know that you’re on you’re way!! When you’re running away from the things that you wanted to do, or waiting for the things you wanted to do to happen, and you realize they aren’t happening the way you want them too, maybe it’s time to get moving forward! Getting off my butt and getting moving is the best thing I can do for myself and for my life, I realize this and I realize that it won’t be easy, I’ve got to jump through my fears and shake them off. I need to get myself going and get my fears shaken off! I watched the Disney movie Meet the Robinsons it’s a great movie with a great message of keep moving forward! At the end of the movie they have a quote that’s by Walt Disney! I love it!

“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long.

We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things…

and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” – Walt Disney

There are so many paths that we all can follow but when we follow the wrong ones, and we start going the wrong way. And then we have to backtrack and restart our journey, restarting can be a good thing though! You’ve learned from your mistakes of going the wrong way and you’ve moved forward to change the view in what you’ve started and made it something you can be proud of! That’s what I want to do is be proud of my life, and have my family and friends proud of my life! Mind you the movie Meet the Robinsons is about an inventor, but aren’t we all inventors at heart? As we invent our lives? As we reach to invent new ways to survive? As we move forward in the invention of what we are doing with our time… It’s just something to think about and dream about and read about. As much as you  dream, live, laugh, cry, sleep, jump for joy, you have to “keep moving forward” there is nothing else that you can do but move forward, because if you stay where you are then you’re just sitting there like a bump on a log that floats down the river and goes over the waterfall at the end of the stream, where is can get destroyed when it goes over the waterfall and lands of the pile of rocks.

Then you can look at an image that is from Maldives, it looks like the most amazing place and in my head that is the place of my dreams! I’m trying to move forward so one of these days I will be in Maldives! In my dreams it’s an amazingly beautiful place!! One day I will be there!

This seems sometimes so true! There are moments that I feel like I’m drowning and not moving forward, struggling to stay afloat and not going anywhere. Personally I can swim very well, but when life holds you down you have to fight to get back up! Life is hard sometimes and when you struggle against the current you do end up so over tired because you’ve struggled too much! Going with the current is the best way to save your life, when you struggle to hard, and keep fighting is when you drown. Sometimes you have to relax into the current to struggle back to the top, and when you make it back to the top you can take that big breath of air that you’ve been waiting, and needing to take!

Life moves forward like it should and it always will the question is though, Am I and are you willing to go forward????