Overcoming Sorrow

So this week it’s been hard for me to write in my blog here. I think I have finally figured out why. This weekend my boyfriend and I are going out to dinner with his mom and brother (whom I love dearly) at the same time we are celebrating someone who was important to us all. It’s going to be lots of fun I’m sure but it’s also going to be hard to do since this is the first birthday that we are going to have without him. Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you and throwing things in your way when you don’t expect it. I’m excited to celebrate, but at the same time I’m not excited. Losing someone is one of the hardest things to do.

There are many times I think of this person that we all lost. I’ve got one of my favorite pictures that has all of us in it. I love that picture and it was the last time we were all together. I don’t usually get so nostalgic about these things, it’s an amazing feeling when I can. I miss him. I loved him. I talked to his brother today and it’s so fun that I’ve gotten this connection I didn’t know that I would. I love it! It’s amazing how much of my boyfriends family has come into my life. I never really thought about how many he’s got in his family. I don’t know how we all survived our lose but we did, and we all move forward but we are all remembering this weekend.

So I know that this picture has a question mark after it but I think it should be an exclamation mark instead. Thinking about how much I miss someone is an easy thing to do and also a hard thing to do. Life isn’t the same after that special someone isn’t here anymore. Sometimes though that person can have an impact in your life that you never knew they did. I was excepted and loved, there was no question about it. I was cared for and I felt the very same about him. When I heard the news I was crushed, it was kind of sudden but at the same time it wasn’t. Life is different without this man in our lives. I know that he might not have realized how important he was. But I am sure he knows now. I know that God has a funny way of blessing us and taking care of us, sometimes the impact people have in our lives is a special message from God Himself. But the love that we all feel for our man who was lost will always be there. And the love that he felt for all of us I hope we always feel.

The grief we feel will always be apart of us, we moved forward, and we remember who he was when he was taken away from us to be in a better place. Life moves forward and the ones that we’ve all lost through life are still with us. Remembering the good and the bad, but always remembering the best part of that special person in our life that was so dear to us!

Amazing Family

Family means

1. a. A fundamental social group in society typically consisting of one or two parents and their children. b. Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place.  2. All the members of a household under one roof.  3. A group of persons sharing common ancestry.   4. Lineage, especially distinguished lineage. 5. A locally independent organized crime unit. 6. a. A group of like things; a class. b. A group of individuals derived from a common stock: the family of human beings. 7. Biology A taxonomic category of related organisms ranking below an order and above a genus. A family usually consists of several genera. 8. Linguistics A group of languages descended from the same parent language, such as the Indo-European language family. 9. Mathematics A set of functions or surfaces that can be generated by varying the parameters of a general equation. 10. Chemistry A group of elements with similar chemical properties. 11. Chemistry A vertical column in the periodic table of elements.  1. Of or having to do with a family: family problems.  2. Being suitable for a family: family movies.

So I looked up what family means and this is what I got! There’s so many things there! I never thought of family as anything but my mom, my father, my stepdad, my stepmom, my sisters, my brother, my boyfriend, his mom, his brother, my grandparents, and my best friends. My family is big and sometimes confusing to those who don’t know it. But the people in my life are a amazing! I love having my family around me! I forget sometimes how spoiled I am to have them all in my life! I was with my mom, dad, sisters, their husbands, and my grandparents this weekend. They are amazing and so much fun to be around! Both of my sisters got married last year and one of them had cupcakes at their reception, when the woman who made them put them out she noticed that one was missing… We all knew my grandfather had taken the cupcake cause he was sitting there “minding his own business” when one disappeared. My grandma didn’t believe that he had taken the one cupcake she was like I got him his cupcake and I looked at her and said that doesn’t mean it was his only cupcake! LOL! Grandma then looked at Grandpa and said did you take her cupcake before the wedding??? I’ve never seen grandpa so red and he was laughing and trying to eat at the same time! Grandpa finally admitted after almost a year that he stole the cupcake! And we all just about fell out of the chair laughing, Grandpa says I never thought anyone could embarrass me! It was great! My family is amazing! I love them!!

My family gives me strength to be myself and to believe in myself. My family loves and cares about me and what am I am doing in my life. I’ve been blessed to have the family I do. I know that there aren’t many people who are blessed like I am. I feel very sad for those who don’t get to appreciate the love and joy I’ve been given in my life. My family is a bright spot in my life! They always have been even though I know I haven’t always been the brightest person in theirs. They have chosen to love me and care for me and keep me in their lives!

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Being Grateful

I’ve been struggling to be grateful for what I have, gratefulness isn’t hard when you think about all the things that I do have. I’ve got a wonderful family, an amazing boyfriend, an wonderful second family through my boyfriend, and amazing women that are in my life through Mary Kay! I’ve got a lovely apartment to live in, and I’ve got some great things around me. I’m grateful for everything that I have, including the life I grew up in, as much as I might complain to my mom or my dad about it, I had a life that can be considered better then some. I can’t complain much but I know I wasn’t an easy child for my mother.

I believe in myself to a certain extent, I know that if I put my mind to something I can do it. But it goes back to my obstacle of myself and when I don’t try to believe in myself then I don’t succeed. There are so many things to accomplish and to do in my life. I want to make so much more of myself and I know I’ve said this before. Just going and doing things is a hard thing to do for me, going on and on about things I want to do, I’ve got to know I can do them first before I do them. I’ve always been the kind of person that needs to know that I can do things before I do them.

Following your bliss is not an easy thing to do for everyone. I think I fear my bliss, I want to know that my bliss is really what I want it to be. How do you know what your bliss is? How do you find your bliss? I know that with my Mary Kay I love the product, I love the women that are apart of my life because of it. I know that there are things I want to do along with Mary Kay like some crafts that I’ve found that would be fun to do. I’ve got so many interests it almost feels like I’ve got adult ADD… I know I don’t and I think it can be diagnosed to much… But I know there are some who are really ADD… Ok sorry for my side note! LOL But back to the life that I want to build and to make… I want to make so much more out of my life. I’d like to have the money to pay for my rent so my boyfriend wouldn’t have to worry about it for the month! It’d be amazing to tell him that I was paying for rent this next month! I don’t know what he’s say or do. I think it might shock the hell outta him! LOL! And maybe I’d get a ring around my finger, but we’ll have to wait and see.

Life is funny it makes things so clear sometimes and sometimes its so difficult. I’m going to try to remember to be grateful every day for all that I have and all that I’m waiting to make in my life. 🙂

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