I’m Being Me

There are so many people who live in their own little worlds, and looking at this saying it’s so true about some of us girls… I know I love to live in my own little fairytale. In my head I live in the best fairytale ever! I know that it’s not always perfect and there are always problems that seem to arise. I’m always fighting the evil queen or the evil witch that comes out when least expected. There are so many things that run through my head, and then I’ve got to listen to my heart and remember who is there to love me and rescue me from myself sometimes. My boyfriend is my Prince Phillip, for those of you who don’t know it’s Sleeping Beauty’s prince, my boyfriend loves me and takes care of me. My family also rescues me and saves me too, they are just always there for me.

I just had to share this picture, one day when I’ve got my act together I’m going to have a picture taken of me like this! I want this so badly! I just love the sentiment of it all, the glitter, glitz, and the glam! It’s just an amazing picture that I want to replicate! I’ll have to ask my wonderful friends who take pictures to help me get this one done! It just says so much without saying anything! It’s fantasy! To me it says hope, fun, extraordinary, flashy and just lots of joy! Everyone that I know could always use some extra joy in their lives! I love to be happy, joyful, and singing at the top of my lungs when I am happy beyond all get out! LOL! Life has a funny way of showing you happy and sad, then giving you back you’re happy!

Sometimes even though your getting to where you want to be, the most rewarding part is getting there! Like making cookies the cookie dough is always the best part of the cookie making process. I don’t care what anyone says it’s the truth! I love the cookie dough and the labor that goes into making it, is its own reward. To make cookie dough you need to have all the right ingredients to have them taste right, and you always have to sample what you make so that you can make sure they taste right. It’s like if you mix up the baking power with baking soda (maybe it’s the other way around) but you get what I mean. Those cookies won’t be eaten! They just get shot down the trash can!

What I was saying above I don’t want to just throw myself away and there are times I feel like I am because I know I’m not living up to my full potential right now. Especially with my Mary Kay work that I need to, and want to be doing. I love what I do when I’m doing my Mary Kay I know that being accountable to myself and to my accountability partner is a big step in getting things moving and it’s a scary thought that I can do this amazing thing and be an inspiration that I want to be to other women. But I know to be happy with me I need to be me, I need to push myself, I need to engage people to make their lives better!

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Successful??

I need to super-size my life! I have to stop procrastinating and move forward with everything! I want to be proud of myself, I want to make my boyfriend proud of me. I want my family to be proud of me… I don’t know if I need recognition for everything I do, but I know that I love to have recognition if I can get it. I know what I need to do to succeed but it’s a scary thought to be successful, and scary not to be successful. It’s kinda a catch twenty-two, I want to be successful but I also know that I need to work my ass off to get myself taken care of and make the money I want to!

Being myself isn’t always an easy thing to do, I’ve learned over the years to get better and better at being myself. Everyone is good at being their-selves if they just put their minds to it. I love when I can be myself and have fun and just live. Sometimes its scares me to live though, some people it seems don’t think about how scary it can be to be yourself. And yet being myself isn’t as hard as believing in myself. It’s not an easy thing to move forward and just believe you can do it. What’s the last thing you did that you believed you could do it and you did! I remember quitting my job and knowing I could make it with Mary Kay. I know I can make it, I just have to believe I can.

I look at this quote by Reba and I think I have all of those things inside of me, how do i find them?  I have a wishbone, I have a lot of wishes and dreams that haven’t come true yet. I have a backbone, I’ve stood up to people who were wrong more then I can remember. I have a funny-bone, I sometimes don’t realize I have it but I do, it’s not until I say something and everyone laughs that I realize there’s my funny-bone! If I could just move all of those things together I could do what I want to and what I need to get myself going. Reba has always been one of the best women I know to look up too. She has lived through and survived so much more then one person ever could. I can thank my father for introducing me to her music. She’s a country girl who made her dreams come true.

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Amazing Family

Family means

1. a. A fundamental social group in society typically consisting of one or two parents and their children. b. Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place.  2. All the members of a household under one roof.  3. A group of persons sharing common ancestry.   4. Lineage, especially distinguished lineage. 5. A locally independent organized crime unit. 6. a. A group of like things; a class. b. A group of individuals derived from a common stock: the family of human beings. 7. Biology A taxonomic category of related organisms ranking below an order and above a genus. A family usually consists of several genera. 8. Linguistics A group of languages descended from the same parent language, such as the Indo-European language family. 9. Mathematics A set of functions or surfaces that can be generated by varying the parameters of a general equation. 10. Chemistry A group of elements with similar chemical properties. 11. Chemistry A vertical column in the periodic table of elements.  1. Of or having to do with a family: family problems.  2. Being suitable for a family: family movies.

So I looked up what family means and this is what I got! There’s so many things there! I never thought of family as anything but my mom, my father, my stepdad, my stepmom, my sisters, my brother, my boyfriend, his mom, his brother, my grandparents, and my best friends. My family is big and sometimes confusing to those who don’t know it. But the people in my life are a amazing! I love having my family around me! I forget sometimes how spoiled I am to have them all in my life! I was with my mom, dad, sisters, their husbands, and my grandparents this weekend. They are amazing and so much fun to be around! Both of my sisters got married last year and one of them had cupcakes at their reception, when the woman who made them put them out she noticed that one was missing… We all knew my grandfather had taken the cupcake cause he was sitting there “minding his own business” when one disappeared. My grandma didn’t believe that he had taken the one cupcake she was like I got him his cupcake and I looked at her and said that doesn’t mean it was his only cupcake! LOL! Grandma then looked at Grandpa and said did you take her cupcake before the wedding??? I’ve never seen grandpa so red and he was laughing and trying to eat at the same time! Grandpa finally admitted after almost a year that he stole the cupcake! And we all just about fell out of the chair laughing, Grandpa says I never thought anyone could embarrass me! It was great! My family is amazing! I love them!!

My family gives me strength to be myself and to believe in myself. My family loves and cares about me and what am I am doing in my life. I’ve been blessed to have the family I do. I know that there aren’t many people who are blessed like I am. I feel very sad for those who don’t get to appreciate the love and joy I’ve been given in my life. My family is a bright spot in my life! They always have been even though I know I haven’t always been the brightest person in theirs. They have chosen to love me and care for me and keep me in their lives!

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Being Grateful

I’ve been struggling to be grateful for what I have, gratefulness isn’t hard when you think about all the things that I do have. I’ve got a wonderful family, an amazing boyfriend, an wonderful second family through my boyfriend, and amazing women that are in my life through Mary Kay! I’ve got a lovely apartment to live in, and I’ve got some great things around me. I’m grateful for everything that I have, including the life I grew up in, as much as I might complain to my mom or my dad about it, I had a life that can be considered better then some. I can’t complain much but I know I wasn’t an easy child for my mother.

I believe in myself to a certain extent, I know that if I put my mind to something I can do it. But it goes back to my obstacle of myself and when I don’t try to believe in myself then I don’t succeed. There are so many things to accomplish and to do in my life. I want to make so much more of myself and I know I’ve said this before. Just going and doing things is a hard thing to do for me, going on and on about things I want to do, I’ve got to know I can do them first before I do them. I’ve always been the kind of person that needs to know that I can do things before I do them.

Following your bliss is not an easy thing to do for everyone. I think I fear my bliss, I want to know that my bliss is really what I want it to be. How do you know what your bliss is? How do you find your bliss? I know that with my Mary Kay I love the product, I love the women that are apart of my life because of it. I know that there are things I want to do along with Mary Kay like some crafts that I’ve found that would be fun to do. I’ve got so many interests it almost feels like I’ve got adult ADD… I know I don’t and I think it can be diagnosed to much… But I know there are some who are really ADD… Ok sorry for my side note! LOL But back to the life that I want to build and to make… I want to make so much more out of my life. I’d like to have the money to pay for my rent so my boyfriend wouldn’t have to worry about it for the month! It’d be amazing to tell him that I was paying for rent this next month! I don’t know what he’s say or do. I think it might shock the hell outta him! LOL! And maybe I’d get a ring around my finger, but we’ll have to wait and see.

Life is funny it makes things so clear sometimes and sometimes its so difficult. I’m going to try to remember to be grateful every day for all that I have and all that I’m waiting to make in my life. 🙂

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What’s your Grace?

Have you ever wondered what Grace is? This is the definition that I found in a dictionary, a :unmerited divine assistance given humans for their regeneration or sanctification b :a virtue coming from God c : a state of sanctification enjoyed through divine grace. There is so many meanings to the word Grace. How do I as a woman make my way into being Graceful, or just having Grace. I know it’s a lot to wonder but I want people to see me in a wonderful light, not just in a regular light. It’s a strange thing to think about, how do you find Grace? I know that as being a Christian that God’s Grace is given to me, but how do I know that I am being a Graceful person.

Is it as simple as smiling at someone? Is it as simple as just being who you are?

This quote says so much! I know that with Grace and dignity and just plain gumption I can do this! Looking more into my heart and finding what I want more and more. I always know that I can do something but it’s a matter of that thing inside me that holds me back. My heads so full of crap and holding me back. When you make up your mind to do something you’ve got to remember to not listen to what your brain says. I have that problem so much so it holds me back. I need to learn to listen to my heart more, my heart has lead me many places the best place is where I am now with my boyfriend. My heart has also healed from the scars that have been left on it.

I’m dreaming it, I’m wishing it, I’ve just got to do it… I’m planning on doing more and more… The more I work on myself and work on my work for Mary Kay the better my business can get and the better my business will be going! I’m trying so hard to move where I want to be, just doing it isn’t usually in my vocabulary I’m just not that person. I learned about personalities and about how they work, I took a DISC personality test it was interesting to learn about myself, and what my personality says about me.

This says so much about my Mary Kay and how I want to be! I believe in PINK!!! I’ve always loved the color pink and now I work, live and breath PINK!! MK is all pink colors for their packaging, but it’s a prettier pink now. It’s a beautiful light pearlized pink! I can’t wait to be able to earn the Pink Caddy! I’ve got to really buckle down though so I can! I want a free car that I can earn through Mary Kay! It’s not easy but I know that I can do it!!

One day I’m going to get here also! Laying over the water in Maldives! And MK will help me get there!!! I can’t wait!!

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Scars

This is such a real thing in my life. I’ve got a scar that’s on my forehead from a car accident, it’s goes down into my eyebrow. Not everyone can see it though and it’s always visible to me when I look in the mirror. I always think that’s it’s worse then it is. I know that everyone has scars either emotionally or physically. I also know that I’ve got both emotional and physical. Scars can leave a huge mark like the one on my forehead, or they can leave no mark at all except the one on our hearts that they leave behind.

There are people who have had divorces in their families, and there are are people who have been abused, and people that have had their hearts broken by the ones that they thought they loved. It’s amazing how much hurt that one person can take before they will just walk out. When you think you’re in love, sometimes it can just be an infatuation. But the true love the one that leaves your heart soaring every time you see that person or think about that person is an amazing love.

When you’re in love it’s the best feeling in the world. But when you’re heart is broken you can feel like you’re dying. But to have a healed heart and being able to move forward with you’re life and with you’re love is the best thing ever! Living with the scars that were made on your heart is the biggest part of life that we all were never told about as kids. The scars that I grew up with had to do with my parents getting divorced, my life seeming like it was out of control, because it was out of my control. I became a very big control freak because of it, I’m so glad that I’ve eased up on that. Although there are sometimes when I feel like I can control those things around me, when I can’t. I try not to control everything around me anymore.

Life has funny way of throwing things your way. Then knowing that you can’t change the past, but you can move forward and change the future. Living life to the fullest extent and making sure that you never regret what you do! When you have regrets then life doesn’t seem like it’s going well. That’s living in the past and not moving forward. My life hasn’t been easy, but at the same time it’s not been overly hard. Life has thrown me a curve ball or two but I always pick up the pieces of my life and of my heart. I know that moving on is part of life and looking at the things that can happen. It’s amazing that I made it this far in life. I sometimes wonder how my amazing mom put up with me and survived with me. I know I wasn’t the easiest of kids. I know she loves me and cares for me though, otherwise I wouldn’t be where and who I am today!

There are just days in my life where letting go is hard to do. I’ve cleared my heart and my mind is still going it’s not so much fun. When you’re up until all hours and make things seem harder then they are because you’re thinking to much. Let it go. Forget about it! LOL!

Life can be lots of fun! Remember that!!

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Love

I see this quote and it makes me think of my unit leader Rebecca, she is the kind of woman I want to be! She has accomplished so much in the last two years with her Mary Kay. I’ve been working today it feels good to be able to accomplish something. I want to be that kind of woman that people look up to. When I have my children I want them to love me and look up to me. I want them to appreciate me for what I have accomplished, and what I have done with my life for them and their father. I love the people who are in my life and the people who love me back. They are the most amazing people! My mom is one of my heroes also! She raised me well, I don’t know how she did it, but somehow I became a wonderful person if I do say so myself! 😉

Love has always filled my life even when I don’t think so. Love is one of the best things there is in life! This saying is so correct! Love makes the world go round, I once heard that Love is the sister of hate… It’s weird to hear that and think about it. Is it true? Some people would say yes but others would say no. Love and Hate are on such opposite spectrum’s that is makes you wonder how someone could come up with something like that. But if we all had more love then hate we’d all have a better life and time in life. I opened my heart to so many people, some of them broke my heart, and some of them are my best friends. It’s kind of amazing how this can happen. I can’t say my childhood was the best, but I can say I’m the best me I can be for it. Although I’m still working on myself in general but to love is the best thing I’ve found. I love my life, my boyfriend, my family, and my friends. My best friends don’t judge me for being me.

I don’t always get to talk to my best friends but when I do, I love to hear and see what’s going on in their lives. Friends that support and care about you are the most amazing people. Sometimes it’s hard to find the ones that will support you no matter what, but when you do you need to hold on those friends no matter what happens. There will be times when you have to let go and let them live the way their going to without you. And that’s ok, sometimes distance is a good thing. I have a hard time letting go of the people who are important to me especially when the people I love don’t do what I think they should. But I have to remember it’s not me, and even if I don’t agree with everything, I’ve got to buck up and get things the way they were. Or I need to just breath and let things settle down some. Loving someone even as a friend can be hard sometimes, and giving them space can be even harder.

To all my friends past and present thank you for being in my life! Thank you for your love and support. Thank you for being you and letting me be demanding enough to have you be in my life.

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Live

This is so true! Have you ever wondered whether you’re beautiful? I know I have! There are times where I wonder I know that women all have their insecurities, but I know that I’m a beautiful person. I don’t mean that in a conceded way, I truly don’t think of myself this way. I love to put my makeup on and I love to dress myself up and I know that my boyfriend thinks I’m pretty. He’s the love of my life, and he makes me feel very special. I love the way that he makes me feel. I love that he is mine and I’m his. He makes me smile, and is a light in my life!! I light up every time I see him! He’s an amazing person that has supported me in my MK dream! I know that I haven’t put all my dreams into action, but I’m working on doing that. Building my dreams to be bigger and better. I have so much that I want from life and so much that I want to achieve!

I’m trying my hardest to be very accountable to myself and my business. Which is the hardest thing in the world, you never know what you can achieve until you try! I haven’t been trying as hard as I could be or as hard as I need to be. Making a goal and achieving that goal can be easy but they can also be very hard to do when you don’t have your heart or mind set on it. It’s funny cause I was watching the Emmys tonight and Aaron Paul from Breaking Bad thanked his parents for believing in him and kicking him out of their house and making him live his dream! It’s amazing how many people talk about what is needed to achieve your own dreams.

I have to keep believing in myself and my dreams. When I’m not doing anything with my dreams though I’m not doing all that I can to achieve my dreams. I’ve got dreams of owning a house, of not worrying about money, of being able to tell my boyfriend that I’ll pay our rent for the month. I dream of having an amazing wedding, and having my children. There’s so much to reach for and to keep moving forward! I love that saying and I’m so glad that Walt Disney said it. He is one of my heroes not only did he accomplish Disneyland, he left a legacy for his family and his fans. I want to be that kind of person, I want to achieve the life that he was able to for him and his family.

I may have used this before in my blog here but it’s so true and it’s just something that I need to do! I dream it I’ve wished it and now I’ve got to do it! I’ve got so much to reach for and to do, to achieve. I love that I’ve got such a wonderful support system. My family, my boyfriend, and my unit leader Rebecca. They are all the people who look out for me and who want me to make my dreams come true.

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Inspired

I’ve learned that this is very true! People who are amazing have to work hard to be an amazing person. I’ve got some amazing women in my life who have inspired me today. I realize that I’ve got to get my drive and motivation going better then I have right now. I’ve watched the women I work with in Mary Kay be wonderful women, and inspire me to push harder and want more. My unit leader is the most amazing person I know. She’s got so much to live for and to reach for. She is financially independent and living her dreams as she goes. I want to be able to do that. To live my life with all my dreams coming true.

I’ve decided to try to do this more to fill my mind with beautiful thoughts, but not only my mind but my heart also! I need to keep striving to reach my goals and to keep looking forward to what is going to come my way if I meet my goals and dream bigger each time I try to reach my goals. My first real goal with Mary Kay is to earn a free car…

Can you imagine driving a car that is free?? That you didn’t have to pay for and that you just get to use and drive through out a year and a half and then when that time is up you get a new car so you always have a new car. It’s a very interesting thing that is offered to those of us who do use, sell and recruit for Mary Kay. The company is just amazing!! I learned something new today about MK also, did you know that MK has more cars on the road then UPS trucks?? Amazing isn’t it?? The government has more cars on the road the MK and then MK is the second company with cars on the road and then it’s UPS trucks! Weird right!?! But so cool!!!

This makes me think too, I’ve got princess dreams on a beer budget. LOL! And then I remember Cinderella with a line like this it’s totally more of an inspiration… I mean who really thought about this, but someone did. If Cinderella had gone back for her shoe, she might not have ever met the price the way she did. She wouldn’t have showed up her evil stepmother and her evil stepsisters by pulling out the other glass slipper from her dress when the price tried the slipper she left behind on her foot.  Then if you think about The Princess and The Frog story, the princess made choices to not to kiss the frog after the frog rescued her ball from the well, then the frog came up to her castle and told on her to her dad the king no less! I mean really, can you imagine first it’s a frog that talks and then he goes and talks to your father! I mean come on!! LOL! But in the end she kissed him and what did that bring her a prince! The price that she married and lived happily ever after with! I know the Disney version doesn’t tell the story that way but even with that princess she kissed the frog and became a frog but what if she hadn’t kissed the frog? Would she have been able to build the restaurant that she wanted too?? Would she have found a prince that was disguised as a frog??

I know I am kind of rambling here but you get my point I can’t keep saying what if to myself and my dreams. I’ve to take command of my life and of my dreams and keep it moving forward and keep things alive in my heart and in my mind. I’ve got to believe that it will happen more then I believed before. I’ve got to keep fighting for what I want, and what I dream of for my life and future! I’ve got to keep my head held up high and keep my dreams alive.

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Blocked

 

I’m doing my best to clear my mind in general, I have been blocked with trying to write in here with all the things I’ve felt this week. I’ve been struggling with getting my mind over that I can’t, my mom always told me that can’t means won’t, I can agree with my mom there, I can and I will. I try to make so many excuses of why I haven’t or why I can’t and the only thing that comes to me is my mind and thoughts. I have thought about it long and hard I have an opportunity to be at the fair this month and get my ass moving with the things I want to make and become in my Mary Kay, the month has just begun really. There is three weeks left in this month and so much to time to turn everything around and get moving. I’ve got to get can’t out of my head and make it I can.

 

This is so true in the business that I want to be in, I want to be my own boss, I want to believe that I can do what I say I am going to do, I want to be the one that friends can look up to and see what is going on, I want to be that person that anyone can look at and say there is something different about her, I want to reach my dreams and look out and see my future as a bright happy place. There is so much want and so much dreaming to be had. I dream about lots and I dream big, my dreams scare me and at the same time they don’t feel big enough sometimes! I’ve got life dreams of being married and being someones life, and someone’s love! I want to be a mother to my kids! I want to enjoy my life and look at my honey and say I’ll pay the rent this month! What an amazing feeling that would be! I dream and I dream big but somehow my dreams have always been that! My own life, my hold on my future, my moving forward and getting moving, my enjoying things that happen, and making all of my parents proud of me. I want all these things! Yet I hold myself back afraid to believe that I can do these things and make these things happen. Holding myself back doesn’t get my things done and doesn’t get my business where I want it to be. I hold on to those who are dear to me with all my might. I find that holding to tight though can push them away and that doesn’t help me to succeed.

My friend and leader put this up on facebook and it just spoke to my heart, my life doesn’t have a purpose by my own choosing. I haven’t made a choice to do my thing that I want to do to succeed with my business and my life! I make the choice to love my boyfriend everyday and he makes that especially easy! He is my love, my best friend and feels like my forever. I love being with him and I love the way he loves me but my purpose to succeed in my business hasn’t gotten me where I want to be because I’ve made the choice not to succeed in my business. My Mary Kay isn’t a hard business to work, I’ve just not worked it the way I wanted to and need to! I want a purpose and I want my dreams to be my purpose.  I can’t wait to succeed in life, in my business, to go further into my self growth then I ever have before. One day I’d love to write a book, I don’t know what about but someday I will. I guess that would be one of my dreams also! 🙂

This is my life now, I’m making my commitment to myself and to my dreams more then I’ve ever before! Click the pic check it out! 😉